Lately I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure from the immediate TBR pile that is towering on my nightstand and spilling onto the floor. The books are from a variety of sources: ones I’ve bought, review copies, some lent from a friend, and others from the library. For some reason I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself to hurry and finish them right away. I just feel like there are so many great reads – ones on the immediate TBR and those that aren’t – that I better get to stepping because I don’t want to miss out and I need to read all of them. I tell myself if I could just get through these then the pressure would be off and I could leisurely select my next read without prioritizing or list-checking my TBR – just reading whatever catches my fancy.
I was never like this with my reading until I started my blog, and this is definitely the worst the pressure has ever been. There’s always another book I need to read pronto so I can review it pronto so I can hurry and get to the Next Big Thing. It was when the pressure was so overwhelming that it was discouraging any reading whatsoever that I knew my outlook had to give. For me that was looking at my immediate TBR conservatively, making a pile of what I realistically wasn’t going to get to anytime soon, and putting that stack in a less prominent place, promising myself to return those books to their rightful owners or my bookshelf ASAP so I wouldn’t have to look at them any longer. Since I’ve done that I’m feeling a bit better but the pressure is still there albeit in a different form. Since I was in such a rush my backlog of reviews is longer than I’d like it to be, and feeling behind on reviews is actually a worse kind of pressure for me. Unfortunately I’ll have to be selective and some of them won’t get reviewed. This is sad for me because I used to review every book I read. Life has just gotten busier since little girl arrived and I’ve realized that it’s okay if things are different for the time being.
Does reading ever become a chore for you? What do you do to alleviate the pressure put on yourself and to make reading about quality instead of quantity?